Me right now!!

Today has been weird! It started off great but then Katie cried?:( it was really sad and I thought she didn’t want to be near me so I left her after giving her like a 5 minute ish hug and asking her what was wrong about 7 times and getting no answer so I left her and in the end she came round and cheered up.. I feel asif she’s like hiding a bad feeling about me from me because she doesn’t wanna risk loosing me.. I love her so much though! I hope she’s okay! We had a few laughs and stuff and the good emotions picked back up again until we went and had some food.. At the dinner table infront of her mum & dad we came across the subject of relationships and Katie decided to bring up me and Alex.. Why? What’s the point? It was over 2 years ago now and I didn’t even get with her?! Sorry for being human an getting my feelings mixed up.. :/ it’s not like I was in a commited relationship with you and left you for her?! I thought I liked her.. Saw that I didn’t and got together with you. We’ve been together for nearly two years straight now, like no fall outs and you can’t let it go FFS asdfghjkl!!!:@ annoying. Like she brings up my ex girlfriend Beth a few times to and makes little jokes like “ooh nope you broke my heart..” but I know shes not joking, she’s told me before she’s genuinely not over it, pisstake! But why would she bring up the Alex thing.. Over dinner infront f parents?! Got such evil looks from her mum but I could see her dad knew how I felt.. I love Kevin! I love her mum too like, a lot but she must think im some typical twat boy now because of a stupid misunderstanding over two years ago! Eugh! Felt so awkward for the rest of the night!:’( we ended up watching the last Harry Potter DVD with her parents which was good and we had a few giggles too but the Alex thing was always at the back of my mind!:/ hopefully I’ll fall asleep and dream it off! Night Tumblr.

Everything was chilled and then BAM! Shit hit the fan! People from my school were fighting, a guy tried to stop it or something and ended up getting his head split open with some form of bat! So I had to ring mates I see if they were alright cause they were there and then some drunken friends came to my friends house where me, him, my girlfriend, a guy called joe and his girlfriend, cameron and Tom were because they had nowhere else to go.. We were having a chilled day an it all went south! Jamie, (the mates house I was at) has a girlfriend who was there an she just went bonkers and said some shit to him which hurt to say the very least! Then an old friend Alex turned up because she was drunk too and Jamie’s brother is friends with Alex’s brother who was with us went and picked her up and her and her boyfriend are going through a really rough patch and aw it’s sad:( I’ve missed her so much! We used to be like, the bestest of best friends and having her open up and cry on me was sad but in a weird way I missed it, having her back and stuff was cute:’) cheered her up, have her a pair of ears to rant to and a shoulder to cry on ect, I calmed Jamie down and stuff cause his girlfriend seemed to prefer another guys comfort to his:/ sad i know! And the hard part is, Jamie is sleeping at that guys house tonight! Awkward?!:/ but i calmed people down, gave people comfort and was there for friends - job well done?!:D aw it was all fab though, like today overall.. Me and the girlfriend have been on the phone for 41:52 now and still going.. Aw I love her!:’) well, that it for now.. Night shitheads! :’)

Aw tonight has been awesome:’) finished a bit of my engineering and had a great night out with Liam and Leigh! Aw it was funny, great laugh and a few games of football & basketball!:) pretty much the last day of proper school tomorrow.. Dont want to go! :’( seeing Katie again tomorrow, not seen her for like nearly 5 days!:’( missing her.

I went out with my mate Liam tonight, aw it was so funny.. We had such a laugh and some serious talk too which is always good:) aw he’s great! :’) I’m going out with him again Saturday, should be fun:’) hope the rest of this week goes smoothly.. Cba with anymore pathetic fallouts between friends who argue over shitty things.. Pure effort. Peace is so easy.. Just boys egos and so called “pride” get in the way. Ppppft. F’cough!

Today it was boiling! But the really bad type of boiling:( proper irritating boiling, all sweaty at school cause of football and Eugh! Don’t need it! Was a fun day though.. Had some good laughs!:) even though at lunch I was literally sneezing for the entire time!:( life’s a bitch ehy?:’)

But I’m getting sick of this couple I know, this couple consists of two of my close friends, one I’ve know for years and years and years and one I’ve grown very close to over the past 3/4 years. Basically everyone thinks they use each other for sex which seems likely tbh, and then he brags about it to his mates in our group and people in the group are getting pissed off about it and falling out but the next day lick each others arse? :s and then his girlfriend told me some stuff and then went to a party and told everyone there cause she was fairly drunk and it was some personal stuff between her and the boyfriend and shit has all kicked off and she found out that he brags load about having sex like every night so now she’s not letting him (HHAHA!) and they’re not speaking now because he is annoyed at her but it makes no sense to me because he told me loads of stuff about what he did with his last girlfriend and she found out and dumped him and he didn’t like it so I dunno why he’s being a hypocrite about it now. My exams are mostly out of the way, I feel I’ve done good in everything but science, got two math exams left and I’m done with school forever. Im going to miss it so much, it really has been the best experience of my life. It’s had ups and definitely had its downs but all in all it’s been a great ride. I’ve made friends I thought I’d never have and I’ve found out what it means to be a good person. I’ve found myself and grown up so much in the past 2 years it’s untrue. I’ve been told so much so many time I’ve grown up a lot and become much more confident. I thank everybody in my life for the best experience ever.:-)